3.14.2008

Anticipation

The nursery is ready...


The car seat is waiting...


The diaper bag is packed!



All we need is our baby! I have so much anticipation right now. I am so looking forward to the birth of this baby, but at the same time I know that he needs to stay inside of me for a few more weeks. I feel like I have so much time, energy, excitement, fear and joy invested into this child and I'm just ready for the pay off. I can't wait to see, touch, hold and hear my sweet little baby boy. This pregnancy has been a challenge and I'm so ready for it to be over, but only at the right time. Can you sense how much my emotions are torn right now? Having been on bed rest for a week now (1 week down and 3 more to go) I feel like I have so much time to just think and wait. My mind is driving me crazy. I have so much anxious energy, but no way to get it out. It would really help if I could clean or organize right now, but instead I'm stuck reading or watching t.v. The first week went by really fast, but I'm starting to go a little stir crazy stuck in my house. Since I haven't blogged in over a week I thought this would be a great place to get my feelings out. Thanks for listening!

Besides all the anticipation that is building in my mind, things really are going very well. My contractions are definitely under control when I am lying around doing nothing. As soon as I try to get up and do ANYTHING they start up again. So, I'm down quite a bit during the day. I'm still able to putter around the house, make the bed, do a few dishes, fold laundry, with lots of lying down breaks in between. I have been so lucky and feel so blessed to have so much help from my ward, friends, neighbors and family. Actually, my family hasn't been able to help much because my ward, friends and neighbors have been doing so much. They keep commenting on how lucky I am to be surrounded by such wonderful people. I really have a hard time accepting help. I want to be able to do everything on my own and I feel like I can, but it's been so humbling for me to accept the help. It's truly amazing how willing people are to give of themselves. My kids have constantly had friends to play with and places to go. Not to mention the amazing meals that have been brought in. Also, the many calls of concern and care. I don't know what I'm going to do when I have to go back to normal life. I really feel spoiled and very grateful for all the help that we've had. I can't wait to be able to return the favor. It makes me anxious to be able to serve others again!

10 comments:

Angie said...

I'm glad you posted something. I was beginning to wonder if you had your baby! Your nursery is darling! I love it. Good luck with the next 3 weeks. You can do this! I'm glad you have so much help right now.

The Jones' said...

Look at you go!! Come to think of it, I don't even have a diaper bag! lol. That's funny. I might have to go shopping for that today as well as the crib. I am still waiting on the approval to go back to work on Monday. She hasn't called me back, and I am beginning to think negative thoughts! So, I am going to go out and about today and get some things done. Let me konw if there's anything you need!

Utley Family said...

I've been thinking of you the past couple of days and was going to call you today! I'm glad to hear that you are doing ok! I love your nursery! I have lots of movies and books that you can borrow if you want to kill some more time! Hang in there!

Reeses Pieces said...

Wow, I can't imagine having contractions everytime I stood up. Crazy! Keep that baby in there.

The nursery looks cute. But no surprises there. Your house always looks cute. Nicole

Lynnise said...

I think you are amazing. Your nursery is soooo cute, I would love to bring home a sweet new baby to play with in that cute room! Good luck with the bed rest, I hope the next couple weeks go by quickly for you. You should write a cookbook of all your yummy recipes while you're in bed. You could have it published you have such a good collection. I'll be thinking of you!

Anonymous said...

I will be thinking of you this week, as I go to see Wicked for the second time! Then I will be over for a visit. That will pass the time!

Everything looks great! Waiting really is the hard part. It will be worth it in the end, when you (and I) are holding your new little baby!

Jordan said...

ofcoarse you are allready. I still have so much that I want to do.

Briana @ Sweet Dreams are Made of These said...

I admire your patience greatly- something I REALLY struggle with. 3 Boys, I am so excited for you. Miss you guys!

natalie said...

Brittany-I am getting antsy for you. The last couple of weeks are killer and especially if you are already contracting. Don't you feel chlosterphobic and anxious at the end. I know youa re ready to jump out of your skin, but don't jump quite yet. Watch a lot of T.V., eat a lot of crap, lounge around and do nothing. Yeah right-like that's going to happen, this is you we're talking about. Isn't the Relief Society program awesome. It is amazing that there are hundreds of sisters right there for you in times of need. That truly is what it is all about. You letting them serve you is blessing their lives the same it has blessed yours. Good Luck!

The Napiers said...

I love the baby's room! I hope your feeling well.